Goodbye April

 It's time to say goodbye to April

Weekend Vlog: April 17 to 19

 This weekend I did not do anything but relax

Door dash work vlog: April 12 to 18

 I took another week off from door dash.

Day in the life: April 16, 2026

Written on April 16, 2026

This morning was rough as I was preparing to say goodbye to him. I still can't believe that he is gone and it's only been a week since he died.

This afternoon, I drove down to Salem which is the first time that I have been down there.

Work Vlog: April 13 to 17

 This week I return to work but had to take Thursday off so I could go to his funeral.

Door dash work vlog: April 5 to 11

 I did not do anything with door dash

Weekend Vlog: April 10 to 12

 This weekend, I took the weekend to recover everything that happen. I wish that you were still here but today officially marked reality that you are gone. I wish that you did not leave me here alone to deal with this.

Work Vlog: April 6 to 10

 This week I did not go to work at all.

Day in the life: April 10, 2026

 Written on April 10, 2026

Today was the final day that I could take it off and I return to work on Monday. I kept hoping that you would contact me and this was not real but it is. I wish that you were here. 

Today I am feeling a little bit better but it still comes in waves.

Day in the life: April 9, 2026

 Written on April 9, 2026

I can't believe that we are almost a week since we last did anything for us. I wish that you were here. I wish that I did not have to go through this without you. 

Today I did not want to go to work but I finally started to do things around here and make sure that they got cleaned up. The apartment was getting bad.

Day in the life: April 7, 2026

 Written on April 7, 2026

I did not want to go to work again. I just wanted time to think about everything that happen and to process what I went through. This whole grieving process has been hard for me. The nights and the mornings are rough.

Day in the life: April 6, 2026

 Written on April 6, 2026

I can't believe that it's been two days since he passed away. I wish that I could say that I focused on my grief but someone would not let me. I just wish that he was still here with me.

It's getting a little easier but not by much.

His funeral or private gathering with friend

 I ended up choosing a gathering with a friend then driving down to Salem on Thursday.

First Easter without him

 I can't believe that he is gone. Today marks the first Easter without him

Day in the life: April 5, 2026

 Written on April 5, 2026

I woke up around 3am after going to bed around 1am so I only had two hours of sleep. I just can't believe that he is really gone. I kept hoping that he was alive.

I did not really do anything today but laundry.

Day in the life: April 4, 2026

 Written on April 4, 2026

This morning, I got up and got ready for the day. I was going down to Salem and getting him.

I hope that this is the last time that I have to do this because this week suck so bad. 

I got down to Salem and then waited for about three hours before heading back home. I had texted and called him to get him to talk to find out what happen. He did not answer the phone or any of my text messages but now I know why around 4:30pm

It turned out that he passed away. I ended up going up to my parents house.

Bad News Comes

 Tonight is one of the hardest things that I have to write. I can't believe that he is gone.

Door dash work vlog: March 29 to April 4

 I did not do anything with door dash

Weekend Vlog: April 3 to 5

 Welcome to another weekend vlog and I can't believe that it's the first weekend of April.

Friday: I had a meeting with my grandma and I was super excited that I get to see him tomorrow. I ended up going to bed with a bad feeling and I don't understand what is going to happen but I know that it can't be good.

Saturday: This morning, I woke up with the same bad feeling but I pushed through it and headed to Salem. I came back from Salem without him but I hope that he gets in touch with me by the time that I can go back and get him. Later that night I learned that he passed away on Facebook. I ended up going up to my parnets house.

Sunday: I still was not doing any better and decided that it was best that I took tomorrow off from work. I headed home and got ready for Monday.

Work Vlog: March 30 to April 3

 This week was four day as I took Monday off.

Monday: I did not work today.

Tuesday: Today was a good day with the kids.

Wednesday: Today was a good day with the kids.

Thursday: Today was a good day with the kids.

Friday: Today was a good day with the kids.

Door dash work vlog: March 22 to 28

 I did not do anything with Door dash

100 blogs and counting

 Today marks one hundred blogs and counting

Day in the life: March 30, 2026

 Written on March 30, 2026

This morning, I had to wake up early and call my work because I had something going on. 

We went to go do the loans and then headed back to the apartment where he and I were planning to do door dash and Goodwill.

We went to goodwill and then came back just to charge the phone and right when it was charged he did not want to go.

He had to go back to Salem tonight so I took him to Clackmas Town Center. 

Weekend Vlog: March 27 to 29

 This weekend was busy but fun. It was also someone's birthday on Saturday and I wanted to make it special.

Work Vlog: March 23 to 27

 It was a good week with the kids.

Easter 2026

 Happy Easter

Door dash work vlog: March 15 to 21

 I did not do anything this week

Weekend Vlog: March 20 to 22

 I don't remember much of this weekend but it was a good weekend. I got to meet him and he is super nice.

Work Vlog: March 16 to 20

 This week, I don't remember what happen this week. It was an okay week with the kids.

Hello April!

 This month marks a very slow month for us as we have no birthdays. We do have Easter and Earth Day.